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Yeah that’s right. I’m ashamed. Not of any of you though…I’m sure you’ve all been paying attention to what you’re putting in your mouth and making sure you get to the gym. I’m so ashamed of myself! I’ve put off boxing until February (to save some money), I’m making it to the gym once per week (if that), and I’m eating anything that’s not nailed down! In a perfect world this would be fine and dandy and my weight wouldn’t be compromised by my love for Starbucks peppermint lattes. In the land of reality, however, I’ve gained back all the weight I had previously lost…and then some. It REALLY hurts to say that out loud. (Well, type it…but you know!) Everyone says we’re bound to gain weight around the holidays but I don’t want to be one of the people that lets it happen to them. I want to be in control!! I don’t want food to be in control of me!!

I’m pretty sure Halloween is where it all started going south. When those ‘fun size’ chocolates started showing up around the office. Let me tell you there is NOTHING fun about those little buggers. It’s amazing how many you can mindlessly pop in your mouth while you’re sitting there on your rump staring at your computer. I started keeping the wrappers on my desk as a reminder of JUST HOW MANY I had eaten. Talk about an eye opener!!! And also, my new favorite tip. After Halloween was a mini-vacation to Chicago, followed by my birthday, which was followed by Thanksgiving…and here I am today…11 lbs heavier than the last time I had logged on. SIGH. I’ve spent the past few days wallowing in my own self pity, but I think it’s time I get back on the horse!

I’ve spent the majority of the evening planning out meal and workout schedules and even switched gym memberships! The gym I currently go to closes at 9pm and when I get home from work at 6pm and eat dinner there’s just no time to digest and get a good workout in. So anyway I switched to 24 Hour Fitness at a KILLER rate (half of what I’m paying at my current gym) and they’re open…well…24 hours! This will be soooooo much easier on me. Especially if I leave work late I won’t have the excuse of ‘oh well, I guess I can’t make it to the gym tonight’…or after class gets out at 9pm I could go workout! This is probably the smartest decision I have made since….well since Halloween. I also have the meal schedule planned out. Six smaller meals each day instead of the 4 large meals I’ve come to know and love over the past 6 weeks. My fridge alone makes me happier when I look in it. It has been soooo bare the past 6 weeks which makes it easy to run through a drive-thru on my way to class since I don’t have any food at home. But alas…NO LONGER!!!

24 also has a lot more classes that appeal to me. To satiate my urge to beat the air in front of me, they offer a Turbo KickBoxing class not once a week (like my current gym) but 4 times per week!!! I’m really just excited about all the new options. Is it too soon to try the Hip Hop class? Ummm yes. So far the workout schedule has kickboxing Monday, Wednesday, and Friday or Saturday (depending on my social calendar — yes I’m trying to maintain a life..haha!) and then strength training on Tuesday and Thursday. I think it’s a pretty ambitious schedule to tackle right off the bat, but once I get going I’m sure it’ll all be second nature in no time!

The time I’m putting into this seems pretty daunting, and I’m sure I’ll be missing out on plenty of holiday soirees over the next month, but right now getting healthy is more important to me than sipping pomegranite martinis and eating holiday cookies. I do have a few holiday parties to go to that, as of right now, do fit in with my schedule. The tricky part is going to be limiting myself where treats and beverages are concerned. That generally seems to be a problem in my life. But I’m back on track now. I got sidetracked before I made it to my last goal…which I was only 14 lbs from! So now the goal remains the same — 140 lbs– but now I’m a more fierce contender.

I figure if the contestants on the Biggest Loser can lose 100+ lbs, then I can lose 20 lbs.!! Now what’s it gonna take to get Bob, Kim or Jillian here to help me train?

Good news!!!! I’m down to 157!!!! I’ve been trying to get my buns below 160 for months and I finally did it! Phew…I was starting to think this was about as far as I could go…but I’m glad it’s not! I still have 17 lbs to go before I hit my goal and my goal date is 6 weeks away. Hmm…math was never my forte, but by my calculations that would be a 2.83 lb/week weight loss. Aaaaaaand I’m not sure I can swing that!! However, I’m confident I can reach my mini-goal (150) by that time which would be a 1.17 lb/week weight loss. This is good though…the perfect amount of motivation to keep me going!!! HURRAY!

I haven’t really been weighing in on Sundays like this site suggests. Ok that’s not entirely true. I’ve been weighing in every week but the darn thing hasn’t been budging! I wasn’t even going to bother with it today but I figured ‘why not?’…and am I ever glad I did!! I was down 2 lbs! WAHOOOO! I’ve been paying more attention to the foods I’m eating…like when I ate ice cream yesterday I totally knew that wasn’t the best idea, but the rest of my day seemed to kind of balance it out so I went with it! :)  I believe my reasoning was “it’s a holiday!”…sure, why not. Haha!

Ok I just had to share that I was finally able to weigh in on here with some good news. Now I’m off to the gym so I can weigh in again next week!

On a very exciting note, I went on my very first week-long vacation last week! HURRAAAAY! On a slightly less exciting note, I was a naughty, naughty Kiki.  A couple of friend and I went down to New Orleans to help out with Habitat for Humanity in Musician’s Village. It was an amazing experience and I met so many wonderful people that just made the trip that much more exhilerating (side note: watch for me on the Travel Channel in Spring ‘08 ;)). Outside of reshaping a community, we found ourselves with plenty of play time…and when you have 3 friends + play time + new territory then you are bound to = NAUGHTY! I’ll get right down to brass tacks y’all (yeah I picked up their lingo. Tee hee..); I ate…and I ate…and I ate. When I wasn’t eating, I was drinking, and when I wasn’t drinking it felt like it was time to eat again. Oh. Good. LORD! I felt like that’s what I should be doing since it was ‘vacation’ and ‘new to me’ and ‘helping to rebuild their economy’…oh yeah, I validated the bejeezus out of my binge!! Friends, I didn’t fall off the wagon. Oh no. I jumped off the wagon and it ran me over, reversed, and ran me over again. Things were fried, drinks had whipped cream, and don’t even get me started on the different sauces everything was swimming in! On the plus side, we were staying in the French Quarter with no real mode of transportation so everywhere we went we walked. And trust me…we went a lot of places!  I also woke up early a few mornings and ran alongside the Mississippi River…it was beautiful!! Nothing like running past such a vast landmark listening to Survivor’s ‘Eye of the Tiger’.

 This morning I prepped myself for putting on my work clothes and told myself it would be ok if things were kinda tight, I would just have to work it off…but to my surprise (and utter delight!!) all was well and just as I had left it a week prior. To this I say: PHEW!!!! What’s done is done and I’m not on vacation anymore so it’s back to reality baby!! I’m hitting the gym tonight for kickboxing and then 6am tomorrow to the other gym for my boxing conditioning class and then Wednesday for Strippercize! I’m excited to be back in the swing of things. Vacation was fun and Habitat was the best experience ever, but it’s time to snap back into reality and get serious…for real. I don’t have anything major happening between now and my goal date (November 17th) so I don’t have ANY excuses for not dropping this weight like a bad habit!

Right off the bat, I feel I should tell all of you reading this (yes, both of you) that I’m not a master blogger. I’m not into the blog…which I find to be ironic since I can ramble on for days until I physically see someone losing interest (e.g. walking away), but I’m gonna give it a go anyhow! Hurray!!

 August 8, 2007…the day my homey, Blaze, introduced me to buddyslim.com. “It’s like MySpace,” she said with a gleam in her eye. I knew I was done for! Considering my deep (albeit strange) obsession I have with MySpace, with any luck that obsession will transfer over to this website where it will prove to be much more beneficial. Oh and there will probably be less crazy people. I have tons of great people in my life and a good 95% of them are supportive beyond belief and make me want to keep on keepin on til I hit that goal weight. There are, however, those 5% that continually crush my hopes and dreams and make me want to drink beer and eat Urban Fries from Jack’s until the gym closes and I say “oops now I can’t go”. I can’t say that I slack at the exercising part because it feels like I’m always doing it (boxing, kickboxing, x-bike, running and strength training takes it to 4-6 days/week)…but it’s the eating part that kills me! When I try to diet people telling me I’m not eating enough to make up for the calories I’m burning, but then when I eat ‘enough calories’ I feel gross and like I’m gaining weight. I just…I just can’t win! Soooooooo….we’ll see. I’m trying to take it a day at a time and not freak out about it because I do see changes. I just happen to be fairly impatient…as everyone trying to lose weight is.

 I’ve decided that I’d like to hit my goal weight by my birthday: November 17th. I don’t know how many times I’ve set goals, only to not reach them, but this time I am SERIOUS. I’ve got a great support group, a new place to vent and 14 weeks to shed these 23 unwanted pounds. Think I can do it? Oh, you bet your sweet hiney I can.